So I currently weigh more than I ever have in my whole life. I’m over 20 pounds heavier than I was going into college. And it sucks but it’s a good thing because of this: I’ve saved up SO MUCH ENERGY from being a fatass for the last forever that I have tons of pent up energy!
I hopped on the bike path yesterday (Wednesday) for the first time since Fall and decided to go for a ride. I passed my usual turn around which is 12-13 miles after I turn around and head home, went into the city of Tonawanda, and entered the city of Buffalo. I made it a grand total of 21 miles and felt phenomenal after.
Just now I decided to go for a run because I was feeling especially obese. Despite not running for over three months, I managed a decent pace and realized a whole bunch of wonderful things: A. I can run in a sports bra at 12:30 AM without feeling self-conscious or getting awkward tan lines B. Running at night isn’t actually that scary and it’s wonderful and cool C. At night, the sprinklers at the golf course which just so happens to be on my loop are on and at full blast. I FEEL SO REFRESHED. I probably look like I sweat buckets to everybody I passed after that but who cares! I feel good.
This is HOPEFULLY (don’t wanna jinx it) the start of me dropping a solid ten pounds and loving my body because I’m gonna work my ass off (literally) and get back in shape!
Can’t believe I had to have that conversation right now. “I know that I told you a week ago that we were sort of dating and I want to keep you around but after that week away and some time to think, I’ve realized that I really do not want and cannot handle anything serious right now.” I don’t know if it’s him or me or just life but I realized all I need right now is casual and thought I should address it. I didn’t really go about it in the best way, but at least it’s out there? Don’t plan on this going anywhere. I don’t do feelings. I can’t.
I’m pretty sure I’m still not over someone who I hadn’t seen for over three months until last week and on top of that I just don’t wanna be vulnerable or hurt anybody. I just need to have fun.
Rawr. I hate doing this. I just tell myself “oh, don’t worry. Feelings will happen over time” but I feel like they don’t. They only happen when I don’t want them to and they won’t be reciprocated. Ha. My life.
I know this is whiny and that this blog is not for whiny but I feel kind of meh about this whole situation. I hope that what I needed to communicate was communicated so that nobody is being lead on. Hmph, rawr, time for bed.
You know you were defeated by grad week when the security staff at Caputi’s continually checks to make sure that you are indeed exhausted and half napping at the bar rather than passed out drunk.
Okay, I love Justin Bieber. And I like this song. But this is a huge cry out and I don’t know how I feel about it. Justin Bieber is a role model for young girls all over the world but his new efforts to come off as a big old grown up without the awkward pre-teen squeaky voice might have a negative impression. I know this video isn’t all THAT risqué but it’s still a change and I am skeptical of what’s to come. Other than that, yay JBiebs and yay new CD soon!
My voice totally died yesterday and I plan on being in Geneseo tomorrow night for senior week. Naturally, I get super sick when I have a very small time frame in which I need to completely heal myself. I’ve been drinking this wonderful te peruano all day and it’s really helping. :) I had tea every meal of the day in Peru and this is such a lovely, warming, comforting treat that it just might make me better. So pleased. It’s not like rawr, healthy tea but it’s delicious and it’s hot so it’s doing the trick for me!
I don’t get why this is supposed to be a good idea. It’s way easier to just ram it in there than to make an awkward pocket on the side. This would feel weird every time you moved your arm. MEANWHILE, if you just ram your stuff in or in between the cups, you’re golden. Lame invention is lame.
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